I'm going to try and keep up with this thing now that I've deleted Facebook! Things are definitely going and I'm just trying to keep up! My Dad was made the Bishop in May and that's definitely been an interesting experience so far, Mom's busy taking care of Grandma and Grandpa alot of the time, Joshua started kindergarten :), Meg's a jr and almost 17 (yikes!!!), and Taylor is pursuing drumming and his performing "career". I'm just busy working and keeping up with the family! I was going to school, but some troubles came up and I had to stop, and I'm still questioning what I'd do if I continue. It's kind of hard to make a choice when all you really want to be is a mom! My Boyfriend, Josh, has almost been gone a year now in Taiwan and he's doing amazing :) Things are moving forward wonderfully with him, and I can't be happier! It's definitely been a long hard road though, but I wouldn't want it any other way.
Right now, I'm really just trying to find myself and rediscover who I am, because I lost that part of me a long time ago. It's definitely a bumpy ride but I know I will not regret it in the end. I'm trying to go back and tie together all these loose ends of my struggles so I can let go and really LIVE instead of survive. Some days are harder than others, with regrets of not living in Logan anymore, or in school somewhere, but I know somehow the Lord's hand is in this and guiding me along. If you had asked me when I graduated how I pictured my life to be at 19, this definitely would not have been what I saw! I would've thought I'd be single, hard working in the dietetics program to be a counselor for eating disorders, living in Logan, and constantly partying with my high school best friends. Ha! Funny how life works out, how your friends change, how we grow and what we learn. I am choosing to take it for the best and not give in :)
Love you all!
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